I have good ability to stay detached from events - such as the misfortune of having a police car approach from the other direction - lights flashing and siren blaring - just as I was nearing an intersection to turn left for home. This forced me to pull 2 lanes over to the right, turn in the opposite direction from home, and then find a place to turn around and backtrack.
Ho Hum.
But bad behavior on the part of people - or what I perceive to be such - can still push my buttons. One such incident came up at work today. I thought it was safely tucked into the "discuss on Monday" bin. But all of a sudden, at the end of a yoga class tonight when we laid down in savasana for the final deep rest, the incident leapt back into my mind and was determined to stay there.
It seemed tethered with an elastic cord to my consciousness. Every time I thought I had let it go, it would drift away a bit farther and then come shooting back into the forefront, some insane part of my mind wanting to dwell on it and create an inner dialog about what I was going to do, what I was going to say to whom about it, and why it was so damn important.
What seems to be shifting the odds in my favor is reminding myself of my intention to be positive in all things, and thinking, "OK, so how can I be positive about this?"
Will I make it through the night without this rebounding once again into my theater of internal drama?
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